Project

Months ago, a friend of mine suggested a seemingly simple solution to the problem of getting to spend time with you: We need a project together.

It's a fantastic idea, and I will never stop appreciating the suggestion. But I have the same problem with it now as when it was initially proposed… what could that project even be?

Over the months, I've come up with and tossed out any number of ideas. I've always wanted to try my hand at writing fiction (I mean… long form… and probably a bit less erotic than some of the fiction you might find here, ahem). I thought… maybe we could collaborate somehow. But, writing a book is her thing. Yeah, don't think that one would fly, even if you were interested…

I think my favorite that I've come up with so far is a podcast… A Doctor Who superfan (that's you) works through all the modern episodes with a filthy casual (guess who?), just discussing the episodes and maybe pointing out little meaningful details and such that a true fan would notice but which slipped right under the casual's nose.

lol. 🤷‍♂️

I mean, it would be fun, but a time commitment that I don't think either one of us is capable of making, no matter how badly we might want to.

I dunno. I've been thinking about it for a while now, and haven't come up with anything that seems workable. But, it's a thought, right? There might be something. We just have to land on it.

Um… wanna help plan her big birthday bash? lol.

Yeah, I guess I'll keep thinking about it.

In the meantime, not much in the way of good concerts for the next few months. I know there's one you're interested in (…I'm not quite sure whether you're interested in the act, or the date… of course, I suppose it could be both). That one would be a hard sell, though. I would be extremely happy to go see them with you. But she'd wonder why I suddenly have enough interest in the act to go. Hm. Maybe if there were a bigger group going…

Aaaaaaaand I fucked up with BBVD. Not even sure you'd be interested anyways. It's not that it's not a possibility, just… the invitation can't come from me. I started one… started a post to the group chat about it. But, before I hit send, I asked her a question about it… trying to be sensitive about how I approach these things after having gotten into trouble with the last one. And she made clear that she wanted me to extend an invitation to that one other couple first, and only expand to the whole group if they accepted. Hm. Interesting, that. At the potluck there was a moment where he had his hand on her back in much the same way I had mine on yours at that last concert…

Probably meaningless. The gesture was only a big deal for me because I'm head over heels in love with you. Because I spent months working up the courage to touch you at all.

🤷‍♂️

Anyhow.

Perhaps Puddles Pity Party? I have a sneaking suspicion you might enjoy that… Alas, that would also be a hard sell, at least for me to be the instigator.

Beyond that… I'm not seeing much of interest in the next few months. And these are already the hardest months for us to see each other…

sigh

Well. We'll figure something out, surely.

Or maybe I'll just break down. I don't want to push you to do anything you aren't ready to do… but god, I just need to spend time with you. Need to.

sigh

Yours,
♒️